So now here’s the truth. I am badly missing home now. The familiarity of the house, the comfort of my parents’ bed and the sofa, the tv, the cats and most importantly the people – my family. Mum and Dad in particular. Tried to call mum the other night but wasn’t successful. Mum turned off the phone! And the bloody card only allowed me to talk for 3 bloody minutes. I cursed the day I bought the card, and ultimately the bloody guy who sold me that bloody pink card. Should have known better than to trust anything pink!
Familiar friends send some words of encouragement, something that goes “you’ll be fine and everything’s going to be alright”, but it’s just difficult to believe them when you’re the one who’s feeling the pain of loneliness. I apologise for getting too melodramatic. It’s just in my nature. Family on the other hand, take a much worse effort. No reply at all to my emails. Golly gosh! I can’t stand being this lonely. Sure there are people at work, sure there are people on the bus that keep staring at you, but nothing beats being with the people you love and care about. Still crossing my fingers that everything’s going to be fine…
And finer everything gets! Last night I went for dinner with a bunch of strangers who quickly became my friends (well at least I hope they think I’m their friend). I was told once that there is no such thing as strangers, only friends you haven’t met. I thank the person who told me that, whoever she/he may be. I can sense that all good things will come out of this newly formed friendship. Perhaps, being away from home (which basically includes almost all countries in Europe – Germany, Romania, Turkey etc.) and trying to experience new things in a foreign land have made us bond better. Perhaps we just simply clicked. Whatever it is, I’m glad and content. I just hope that these feelings of gladness and contentment will last longer.
Forever and ever? …yeah, that’s asking too much!
Familiar friends send some words of encouragement, something that goes “you’ll be fine and everything’s going to be alright”, but it’s just difficult to believe them when you’re the one who’s feeling the pain of loneliness. I apologise for getting too melodramatic. It’s just in my nature. Family on the other hand, take a much worse effort. No reply at all to my emails. Golly gosh! I can’t stand being this lonely. Sure there are people at work, sure there are people on the bus that keep staring at you, but nothing beats being with the people you love and care about. Still crossing my fingers that everything’s going to be fine…
And finer everything gets! Last night I went for dinner with a bunch of strangers who quickly became my friends (well at least I hope they think I’m their friend). I was told once that there is no such thing as strangers, only friends you haven’t met. I thank the person who told me that, whoever she/he may be. I can sense that all good things will come out of this newly formed friendship. Perhaps, being away from home (which basically includes almost all countries in Europe – Germany, Romania, Turkey etc.) and trying to experience new things in a foreign land have made us bond better. Perhaps we just simply clicked. Whatever it is, I’m glad and content. I just hope that these feelings of gladness and contentment will last longer.
Forever and ever? …yeah, that’s asking too much!
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